Saturday, May 14, 2011

Conversation Regret

I can't read my handwriting when I pray
the words come too fast for my hand
His hand
His hands are bleeding and He smeared them on my prayer,
my paper, blurring the page- running the ink
He smeared them on my face, my neck and chest, stomach, legs
down and in between
He put them in my eyes, down my throat,
in my ears
and said, "Put your ear to the sky and listen my darling, everything whispers I love you"
He told me that in a poem and a song.
I felt safe
and I shared too much
Because I know I don't have to carry these sins any more
Because I know I don't have to burden other people with what I have done in the past
it's in the past
paid for.
transaction complete
making in obsolete to vomit my guilt in heaps
on my friends laps, in my family's hair
So God gave me a beat poem
and He took it and He put His hands on it, all over it
and turned it red

Monday, March 21, 2011

The night of the big moon

On nights when Orion is out and there is nothing between you and me but the telephone wires, on this night, can you hear me?
Can you hear me now that the air is tonic? I put my words on the effervescent stars bubbling up to the rim of the sky unobstructed.
If I am ever to have a prayer that You hear, it must be on a night like this one.
Standing beneath an arid Autumn tree, out of place in Spring, a modest breeze swirls the parched leaves too stubborn to fall and "Shush-shhhhhhhshush" my worrisome prayers.
Rock a bye baby in the tree tops.
A Mother hushing my fears away.
The moon came out to play tonight too. Too close this time and got caught in the dry branches- and something else, tied to a twig, shining in its' light, a crystal bell! Bouncing as the leaves shush.
Out of no obligation, but simply a Father indulging His daughters frivolous plea, the bell tinkles.
Yes, on nights like this You are near.
But it's not that You can't hear me on other nights, it's just that on other nights I'm usually inside, and that is a difficult place to see Orion's belt, and it's not possible for a dried up old tree to "Shush!" you, and it certainly is no place at all for a crystal bell to ring by itself!